A object at rest stays at rest, unless a outside force acts on it. few things in my life are like that. that doesnt mean i am brainless to take decisions on weather to stay at rest or not. or it doesnt mean i am rest without consious or consent. well, at least some.
I am very much impacted by the enviorment, like next person. a normal game.
habits, when not assited by enviorment creates friction. people who sticks to there habits even with resistance. thats the actually game. life. with few things, life too shot to like with frictions, and face resistance. few things we dont belive enough in. life gets way easier when you flow with enviorment and still stick to your ideals. thenagain, what your identity if you change with every moving partical.
thenagain, not everone can afford identities.
This is not about identities or habits or courage to face resistance.
Its about smoking, when people ask me weather i smoke or not. i dont know what to answer, i dont smoke as an habit. although i dont reject the idea of smoking.
When i am in my balcony cozy, when its raining outside. i dont go out of my comfort to buy a pack. when i am on the balcony cozy with someone and its raining out side. and they offer a cigeratte, i lit it and keep it in hand as long as possible. doen’t emply that i am not a sassy smoker. i am when i do.
Its like getting a girlfriend, i find it hard to put efforts into impress someone, change there mind and go on date. until one day one more than other, superfecially agree to be in a relationship. I prefer, when someone is already impressed with me and upfront about it, i display efforts beyond my capabilities to make it entertaining, not to mention fair.